It's A First

It's a first that I wanted to cry out loud ,

without a care in the world .

It's a first that I've thought about it so much ,

my head hurts .

It's a first that I wanted to turn up the music ,

to drown myself in the music and never wake up .

It's a first that I just want to talk to someone .

It's a first that I just want someone to understand .

It's a first that my heart hurts .

It's not a first

that I feel lonely ..

again .